ok so kill me i didnt know that song came out last year. at least i like a malay song. i guess ive been listening to too much house jazz.

today i saw this guy. he wasnt cute but he was nice looking. n he was looking my way. so i looked back. n den i realize, i may be older den him. fabulous. not.

i have no time to give free tuition. i kinda feel bad abt it yet nope. after all my students want free ttn but dont do their hw. i hate that.


i love someone. someone.someone. i dont know who that someone is. but i just feel as if i love some person that ive not met before. funny feeling it is. i keep dreaming of senarios but i cant see the man's face. fab. isnt that classic? dreams are really messy issues. worst of all is i embarass myself laughing when i remember my dreams. scary? no doubt. 


but i love someone and so tts it. if that someone is u, den i guess  im lucky? whoever u is though. there isnt anyone in mind. for a first time im single. like really2. no flirtations nth. no dating frens nth. wow. 

i hate it when u go offline without saying goodbye.
you doesnt belong to you alone, but you and you and you.

its like cancelling my call. just let it ring will u? or ans n put down. d 1 sec i hear wud tell me ur busy.


just stop being rude. you and you and you. stop being rude.

especialli u, stand in. wats d point of standind in when im d one who msgs u first? and stop acting prissy missy and saying ur extremely patient. everytime u admit ur patient i just roooollll my eyes. ur rather boring.


shy boy is reali shy. i feel like hooking him den letting him go if he reali is shy. but ttd just spoil my reputation. oh wells. i shall consume my boredom by staring at shy boy for d rest of d hols.
while i get bored n irritated with stand in who doesnt even stand in enuff now tt he is working. BORING.

dis rash will be d death of me. why do i haf such sensitive skin????? thank goodness im not a model. duh i cant be wat with my fats. but if i cud n i haf sensitive skin... id hafta lugg my own make up everywhere rite? hahah ttd be hilarious.

like i said i hate ppl who go offline without so much as a goodbye. yes it means u, stand in. an di hate ppl who cancel calls. yes tt refers to u, dearest criminal.



and so i said to her "why shud i look for another one? d one tt i fell in love with is a criminal. married at that. ive wasted a year fallin for d worst lot. i tink i cant do any better than that. it happens that its that one out of...... oh i shall not write d number down for a lack of knowing d number."

 i am reduced to classics. fairy tale classics. i am inlove with the fairy tale classics. some that follow romeo and juilet, a better version i want to say, some that follow a typical renaissance romance, etc. all that ends with deux ex machina. 

i like men with thin lips. when dey smile it curls back and produces two thin lines that make it so enigmatic. is it a smile or is it an expression pain? is he sarcastic or is he unsure?


i love beauty and d beast. haiz. 


sum1 knows how to make me happy for a while but when i leave i feel empty. after all we are just friends. friends of benefit perhaps it has come to be. but no thin lips. thin lips and sunken eyes. oooh. 

no not monster. not the hunchback of notre dam. 

hoookay what is sextuplets??

 funny how d word objectives came about

u object ive? means "if"? hahaha


object if? can i object? so wats d point of n objective? to object if it isnt suitable?


so y do i haf to do a list of objectives for my form class?

english is a handicapped language sumtimes. 


vanilla is still missing. okay i get the hint. this is lame. 

fairuz is still not over me n he says its good i am over him. hello? i was over him b4 i broke up with him. maybe i wasnt very clear abt it? hahah. but well, for all his weirdness he is a nice guy. in a warped way. a very weird warped way. okay ill leave it at that.

we all sucked last semester. now summer break n we are all engrossed in jobs. finding time is quite hard. 
i miss primary school days. where barbie was a good fren, and we cud hang out in sch playing cards n no one scolded us because i was discipline msitress's pet (one of them according to my frens) and my bestie was a devil in disguise. 


wat happened to those days of in no sense? 

i hear my colleagues talkin abt their bfs todae n i just wana roll my eyes. its just boring. boring. now d first ting u hear is hows ur bf? do u haf a bf?

NO I DUN AND I DUN WANT ONE!! i wun sae ever...cos ppl will scold me.. but still. ITS TIRING, ITS CONSUMING, ITS SOUL GRATING. ohkay so i havent found mr. right but hey! i m still gona complain even if i find mr right imt tellin u.

sch doesnt reali haf much cute guys. oh wells. i still havent tell tt mr. that his fren said hi. reali there isnt any oppurtunity. n if there is, its too scary. u know teachers can talk too. 


n he isnt married but i bet he has a nice gf. he seems nice. n kinda pious. later i talk to him he tink i alien anyhow talk to elder male how? WHHAHA tts absurd. 

i keep tinking abt things i neednt tink about. im an adult, but only a few mths in d making. y shoulder such responsibility? vanilla makes a joke out of it. he neednt be, waited hand n foot esp cos he is an only child. sometimes i tink i sympahtize with the kids from my school, but i know i cant say i know how dey feel cos my parents arent broken, missing or tyrants. well not to their extent la. okay scratch the tyrant part. they are actually. hahaha.

but not as bad as theirs i guess? haiz duno. quite sad tinking abt it. i know i said i dun wana do teaching, but now tt its my summer job, dunca tink i shud learn sth there? d other 2 are just like... eh good nth to do, etc. its even more tiring rotting ard. =( i realize. oh wells. we plan to bring dvds over and watch allll dae long. woohoooo.